Eventhough you said we are now just friends
I still think youre just kidding me
Before this, we are friends too
Speacial friends
We'd never declare anything with each other so apparently
We didnt brake any relationship
I think
I still want us to be like the old us
Theres too much things that i love and cannot forget about you
We promised alot for our future and now
Why is this happening
We're not broken just bent
We can learn to love again
Do you remember the night when cikgu syahriah called us to the teacher's room
Well, she actually called me suddenly you came too
Do you remember what you had promised to her and to me
Do you still remember how hard we tried to make of love looks strong infront of all the people around us
Do you remember how awful we cried hmmm
I hate it because i remember all of this
That night, i actually prayed my istiharah
I followed cikgu syahriah's advice
"Betul ke awak ni yu, awak betul betul yakin ke dia lelaki yg akan jaga awak nanti, awak yakin ke dia boleh jaga awak and anak anak awak dgn baik, awak yakin ke satu hari nanti, kat uni ke, yg awak takkan terjumpa lelaki yg lebih baik daripada dia, sayangnya kalau muda muda macam awak dah lemas dalam cinta ni, perkara ni memang tak boleh elak, mulut orang mengata, kalau awak yakin dengan dia, tunjuklah yg awak yakin dan janganlah terlalu berkepit, takdir Allah adalah yg terbaik, buatlah istiharah, minta allah tunjukkan sama ada pilihan awak ni betul, Allah maha mengetahui, cikgu sayangkan awak yu, cikgu taknak awak terluka time muda ni"
She said something like this, well not accurately,
I only write what i remembers
So yeah, i did it, and slept again
Guess what, that was my first istiharah
so i didnt quite know how it works
No dream
But on Subuh
I prayed hajats and all,
Then when it was time for Jemaah Subuh prayer
The curtains were lifted(as usual)
And that was when i realized, you are the right guy for me
You were there, exactly right in front of me
It was unbelievable and i too was unsured at first whether this is a clue or not
I can see you eventho i dont wear my spec
Obviously it was you and im not crazy
I know that was a sign for me
I know im confident that youre my guy
Youre the one
Actually before i did the istiharah, i thought that i dont need it
I was sure with you
I was pretty sure youre loyal and it taught me to be loyal too
하지만, 지금은 왜 이렇개 했어요?
Its not that im not accepting things youve made with me
But i just couldnt believe how it happened
I still love you
Eventho you dont allow me
And you hate me
They said youre just being ego and i hope its true because if thats the reason
There must be some chance if you open your heart a little for me
I will never hate you
Eventho you wrote things that hurt me
I'm strong I'm strong I'm strong
I cry when no one sees me
I love when everyone hates
Im not okay when im smiling
I want to start it all over
Sing that song Just Give Me A Reason and tell me why i should give up on you
Youre my guy
Youre my crush, again
Youre gonna be my future if Allah lets it
If thats the best for ne
I'll wait, azi
